highly stressed
traumatised
anxious
exhausted
frustrated
angry
depressed
sad
misunderstood
lonely
The process could be lasting a very long time and be one of your biggest challenge you are experiencing. This would be particularly the case if your partner has a narcissist behaviour pattern, domestic abuse of any kind including emotional, financial and physical.
Ongoing stress turns quickly into chronic stress compromising the immune system risking developing
high blood pressure
headaches
auto-immune illness
hormonal imbalance
infections
and unhealthy habits leading to addictions like drinking, smoking, shopping, gambling, eating only highly processed food or hardly eating at all.
It does not have to be like that